November 26, 2005

Track 4

I didn't think that it was very professional to instill (or in my case, even try to instill) guilt on somebody whose decision went in the opposite direction as you hoped. I didn't even think it was professional to bring up the past to attempt to prevent that from happening.

I came out of the conference room, feeling...
1. unjustified
2. undignified
3. slightly shocked
4. slightly relieved
5. disappointed

because
1. I think everyone of us have been contributing to the best of their capabilities even as we receive and are invested upon.
2. I don't know, too, if people my age are close to being ingrates and self-centred; I know that it was uncalled for to even try extrapolating this impression from me.
3. I was expecting more respect, more recognition and more encouragement.
4. I needed to know the end and when exactly it will be, even if it was earlier than I had hoped.
5. With all goodwill, I wanted to leave on a positive note. But, I walked out of that door, feeling very neutral and maybe even disappointed that while I'm trying to balance and respect everyone involved, my decision was not being understood and ( I would say) dismissed as unconvincing.

Whatever it is...

Hey people! The good news is, I will be happily unemployed starting from December 2005! Honestly, I don't know what's with people when they say they find it very difficult to leave a job even though the job makes living miserable. Especially those that have no immediate mouths to feed.

Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 17:02